Hesitation (feat. Lord Kirkus)

from Paradoxical Longing by Tangled Memories

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Caught myself falling into the same trap again
The one where I cannot win
The one where it takes all of the love that I have
And I have none left to give to myself
Left to give to myself
When I give all my love to somebody else
Somebody else
Somebody else

Through all this distortion
The feelings are foreign
I’ve tried to deceive them
But cannot receive them
I’ve feared for the distance
Distracted by longing
I tried to resist this
But cannot dismiss this
I cannot dismiss this
I cannot dismiss this
I cannot dismiss this

Caught myself falling into the same trap again
The one where I cannot win
The one where it takes all of the love that I have
And I have none left to give to myself
Left to give to myself
When I give all my love to somebody else
Somebody else
Somebody else

Lord Kirkus:

Will isolation ruin a soul
If the aloneness is the best part of the whole?
Maybe I'm not the worst companion
But I learn so much more alone

With just a self and not even a reflection
Thinking takes over if I pay attention...
To the clues imagined in existence for me
The world is unique, individually

Language is art, in presentation, maybe
Out on a limb of an invisible tree
Without understanding, the words are lost
Sounds not heard, the sun not seen...

I elect to donate to the molecular breakdown
And restore the ash to earth

With me, friendships, learning this now
Feels as innocent as birth

I can tell you what it feels like
But you really don’t want to know
I can dream that it will be alright
As it always continues to grow

Books and advice go on for days
But they don’t tell what is felt
The consistency of it, is evil and stays
On your mind like nothing else

The day will come and I will choose
Miserable longer? Or freedom and rest?
This is an ending I’ll never wish upon you
I’m trying to do my very best

Minimal interest slowly drifting to the sea
The failure consumes this offering
There is no search party for the average emotion
Acceptance, remains, all that we know of

If love does not find us
The envy may grow
For one can not miss what he does not know

If longing for feelings you did once have
Time cares not, it will always pass
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from Paradoxical Longing, released June 8, 2018

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Tangled Memories Portland, Oregon

Tangled Memories is the project of Portland based singer, songwriter, and producer Garett Pierre Rogers. Immersed within various genres including Trip-Hop, Downtempo, Trap, and Indie Electronica. Garett Pierre brings together Pop elements with bursts of EDM. ... more

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